Open your mouth and taste, open your eyes and see—
how good God is.
Blessed are you who run to him.
Psalm 34:8 (MSG)
His goodness is beyond our ability to comprehend, but not our ability to experience.
Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.
Romans 10:17 (NKJV)
Some Christians do not understand what faith means, because the gospel is being drowned out or watered down by culture.
Salvation is experience. It’s knowing who he is for ourselves. It’s having an intimacy with God that is only personal between you and him.
For decades, my understanding of who God is was through others. What they said and what the did. My perception of him was twisted and warped. I saw so much hypocrisy and lack of relationship, that it propelled me to run as far away from him as I could. I felt hurt by God and believed he was not loving nor kind.
I was a runner in life and a runner spiritually. Wanting nothing to do with God nor church.
But suddenly. Yes, suddenly.
I had come to the end of myself. The end of brokenness. The hole I had dug was so deep, you could have buried me there. I was broken and bloody with so much sin that I couldn’t even stand to be in my own skin.
How could God ever forgive me? How could I forgive myself? I was covered in the stink of my sin. Dirty. A filthy rag, is the way I perceived myself. I could never be loved. I could never love myself, i could never love others.
In a now suddenly moment, I spoke to the Lord. I invited him into my life, my mess and my brokenness. This time, I thought he would be the one to run as far away from me as he could.
My experience was completely the opposite. He knelt down in all of my mess. He knelt down and looked me directly in the eyes. With love and forgiveness that made me tremble with awe. He came to me. He loved me with a tender loving kindness that I never knew existed. In that instant, I tasted. I tasted his love, forgiveness, mercy, kindness, compassion and transparency. He knew me fully and didn’t want to leave.
Who does that? Who loves like that? Who cares like that?
Only One. Only Jesus.
For the first time in my life, I allowed myself to taste and experience for MYSELF. I decided and made a proclamation that day. I would only know him for myself. I would only experience him for myself. I would never base my perception of him from others. But only, from my palate. I tasted of the Lord. I savored him. I knew him.
Father, I pray for that one reader. I pray for that one. That one who is at their wits end. The one who can’t stand to live in their own skin right now. Lost. Broken. Messy. Hopeless. Kneel down with that one. Cup their face and gaze into their eyes. Let them taste you in a suddenly moment. Let them know you fully and intimately through personal and authentic experience. Let them see you running towards them. Bring healing, understanding, revelation, freedom, hope, love, compassion, forgiveness, resurrection, new life, new skin and new beginnings. Let them taste you and know for themselves your goodness and mercy.
Rising and Shining,
Speak for the Unspoken