Following the Lord is becoming his penmanship. It must be an intentional process of allowing him to lead.
Praying the bold prayer of asking the Lord to lead takes courage because it requires receiving his grace to follow. Otherwise, why are we even speaking this prayer?
It becomes a proclamation. Lord, lead me where my feet could never wonder. Spirit, lead me where my faith is without borders.
My journey of redemption entails chapters of being lost and broken in the lifestyle of homosexuality. I was broken by past relationships. I didn’t know who I was. Paralyzed in fear of being hurt further. I was entangled in a web of confusion and lack of identity.
I followed my desire of belonging not my identity in Christ. I followed a twisted understanding of belonging through sexual intimacy with the same sex. I felt safe for a moment. But felt an eternity of separation of genuine love.
The end result of my running produced isolation and sexual addiction that left me empty and shattered in every form.
The Lord is patient and kind. Regardless of the form of sin, it all looks the same at the foot of the cross.
Today, I am free and redeemed. My purity is restored and the Lord has given me a secure place of belonging. The love I now know and experience daily is not linked to sex.
I’m no longer trapped in the lie that I can only be loved as an object of feeding the appetite of self gratification.
I am following the path of purity and grace. Not because I am better than anyone else. Instead, it’s because I have an identity and value. My value is directly supplied through my intimacy with the Lord.
The Lord is leading. I am following. I’m following his lead to allow my story and experience to spill out on others. That they may know for themselves that same freedom and redemption unique to their life.
We all have a story of following something. But it is our choice of who or what to follow.
Lord, as I begin the journey of unveiling untold chapters of my story, bring truth and healing. Bring light where darkness overshadows. Let grace rush in and save broken and shattered hearts and lives. Empower my story for your names sake. Enrich every detail of my story to bring hope and life, where it is nonexistent.
Keeping the green light on in 2018; Rising into an aerial view in 2019,
Speak for the Unspoken
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